Confused
I honestly don't know what I would do. If she came back, would I take her back? Has she done any self reflection? I doubt it. After her last outburst blaming me for things that I didn't do, I don't think she has. Nothing is ever this woman's fault. It's such a shame though. What we could have had would have been magical. I get it though, you have to accept people for where they are at in life. She was so fucking mean and destructive. I've never in my life been treated like that. This hike is a good thing. It has given me something to focus on but it's a distraction at best. We hiked on Sunday and I totally and completely wasn't there. I was going through the motions. I need to focus on being present again.