Random Thoughts by Ktownbuddha

I've taken a long break from posting.  I have no idea if anybody even knows that this exists anymore and I think that's a good thing.  I have been doing a lot of writing for myself over the last while, I just don't publish it anywhere. I started going to Therapy in January 2019.  I had finally realized that the way I was living my life wasn't making me happy.  I was in a relationship with a woman that I shouldn't have been.  She was somebody I wouldn't ever love and was just a filler and left me feeling empty.  So I wanted to work on becoming truly happy and figure out why I made such dumb decisions with women. So the process hasn't been a lot of fun.  I've lost some friends along the way as they weren't able to come along for the journey.  I was warned that this would be the case.  My other relationships have become even stronger and deeper.  I'm able to be vulnerable and open and say that I'm sorry when I truly am.   Fast forward to Decembe

Something tells me this is being read by people I'd rather not have reading it.  It's ok they don't have a life of their own.  Off to another place.

The last couple of months have been interesting.  The relationship ended, and it should have ended at least a year ago.  Unfortunately for all involved it didn't.  I also knew that the end wasn't going to go well.  I knew unless I rolled over and let her steam roll me and take anything she could it was going to go bad.  She never learned the word no.  Nobody ever told her no.  Which unfortunately I did.  I should have known sooner, but you live and you learn. That being said I've taken a lot of crap the last few months.  Non-stop nasty email, constant bad mouthing around town, and passive aggressive posts on social media.  I've tried to take the high road.  I haven't bad mouthed her to my friends or anything.  I don't have to.  When they ask me what happened I tell them it just didn't work out.  I could say a lot more but I don't need to, and this isn't high school. The main point of her contention seems to be that I changed the locks on the hous

I bet a lot of people live their entire life's without having as many stories to tell as it would appear that I'm going to have. I've taken a long break from writing.  I took a break for numerous reasons. Let's start with a list. This blog became too public and I have private thoughts that I didn't need shared. I don't like to air my grievances in public.  If I'm having issues with somebody I tell it to them.  If I'm having a problem in a relationship, I don't feel the need to share it with everybody. Life was going through changes and it wasn't required to be shared all around. I think there are a lot of the same themes in there, but hey it's my list I can do what I want. So why am I back?  Not sure.  I took a spin through this old blog a few weeks ago and thought about giving it a go again.  I'm secretly hoping nobody is reading this as it's for me.  If they are, I'm sure they will let me know, or not, up to th

Is this thing still on???  Haven't thought of this blog in forever.  I wonder if anybody still reads it.  Only one way to find out.

This blog  has two titles.  I've been struggling between calling it “End of the Funk” and “Best Before Date”.  The reality is both are appropriate and reflect the situation I'm in. I have now been working in Cuba for over 3 years. In that time I wish I could say that I've seen things get better but that would be a lie.  Things are continuing to get worse for both the country and the company.  This also means that our quality of life as expats and working conditions has also declined.  As a professional it’s hard going to work every day just trying to keep things together as opposed to being able to make a positive change.  At some point in time you get tired of hitting your head against the wall and it gets a tad bit depressing.  Also I keep feeling that by staying here I’m falling behind in where I want to go with my career.  I miss the days of working for junior companies.  From developing the business, obtaining financing and trying to turn an idea into a viable

Several months ago I wrote about the rumours that our Canadian boss in Cuba was being replaced.  Well apparently the rumours have finally come true.  On Thursday all of the expats were told to join a conference call at which point we were told.   The replacement is one of the Expats already on site.  I work with him quite a bit now and he is part of our walking group.  I'm looking forward to working with him as his style is much different than the current guy.  The new guy is more inclusive, promotes team work and communicates.  The three facts alone should make my life a lot better.  This past week alone another expat and myself were ready to walk because of our current bosses lack of skills in those three areas.  So yes I'm much much happier.  Just have to wait until November 1st for it to be official.